Tai wan tml..

Yup time pass damn fast...Before we went to NS we were planing about taiwan trip.. and 2 years have passed.. tml is our trip.. i am so excited.. Really hope that everything will run smoothly... everybody will enjoy ba... =)

Just now while pacing up my room, i found my sec 4 graduate cd, i was kind of shock... cos i didn't rem i got that cd.. haha.. Then i play the cd.. oh my goodness.. It was videos of us when we are sec1... my face like one blur sotong la.. everyone is so cute... i found that all of us have change tremendously... some .. i almost cant rem them.. wow.. is been 9 years ever since i graduate from there.. going to 10 years le... But things have shown.. though our appearances have changed some how... but our friendship kuan ta, meng kiat, wei xiang, guo xian, wee hon, and hwee khiam and eric.. have never changed at all... finally we have our very own trip... things and surrounding have changed..our feelings haven't changed at all... i can't imagine... we all play basketball in our thirties and fourties.. and maybe 60s... HAHHA.. i hope we will jus continue to play..

I realise something... nthing is forever.. only ur parents and buddies love for u is forever...Some will be lucky.. if they meet the right one.. then u will have additional.. hehe....

getting restless...

I am really getting bored and very bo liao.. every day work.. till late night.. so no life.... hope school can faster reopen.. 3rd august...
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At work.. I wanted to try my best to hit the sales figure... but seems like i am the only one that is interested... my full - timer colleague.. dun even care.. wat the helll... i am just a part timer.. i try my best to bring up the sales figure.. u slacking there.. never come to work.. also never tell me.. everything throw to me.. Expect me like superman izzit... please la.. other outlets de full timer so chiong.. why my outlet de like dun even care or bother like tat.., i feel my burden and responisbility is so heavy.. till i can't breathe at times.. cos i promise my boss to do my best for this brand fair.. but the full timer dun even want to coorperate and some more i need to cover for him when the boss check his attendance... why so shit!! u take money .. i also take money ma.. Why u jus can't have a sense of responsibility..want succeed... pls work hard lei!!! sian ar...
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ANdy... you are so stupid.. why are u so so stupid.. why u want to give ur everything watever u do... in the end.. if failure... the one most hurt and sad is u... can u stop giving ur 100 percent when u are doing things.. wat ever izzit!! Stop being so emotional.. pointless.... only u feel the hurt.. nobody else.. but u.. ..
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sorry... suddenly.. feel like scolding myself.. dun think i am crazy or wat la.. i am ok.. jus want to scold myself... haha... okok.. wan an.. byee...

looking forward to go taiwan.. next sunday!!

"FRUITFUL DAY!!" -___-""

ITs been a tieing weekdays.. i have been working very hard for my wrk recently.. because i trying my very best to hit the target given.. Everytime.. when i reach home.. i feel so weak la.. shag..haha.. long time never chiong le ba.. i tink.. But nvm.. yesterday went out with jing jing to shop shop.. haha.. goodness.. go shopping with her is so dangerous la.. spend quite a lot of money la.. this nice la... tat one nice la.. in the end.. those she say look good on me de.. i buy...my god!! spend too much le.. But never mind.. i also got sabo her.. keep saying.. this is nice.. tat one nice on her oso.. in the end she oso spend alot of money.. hahaha.. shopping king and queen! Feel so funny la.. go out qith her... We 2 like uncle and auntie.. buy food and eat at staircase.. my goodnes.. pathetic.. but the feeling is nice la.. like picnic.. haha.. The most stupid thing is we 2 bought ourself a bag.. then in the end..we opened up and use it... we put those clothes tat we bought inside the bag.. instead of carrying the plastic bags.. haha.. supposely to be a new bag fr our sch reopen.. but so fast open and use liao.. haha..,

ANyway..is fun tat day...shop and eat!..below is we 2 took a pic after eat!! hahaha! Anyway!! transformers is showing soon!! i can't wait to watch!!

tots~~

jus finish watching tai wan dramas ~~ very touching.... but was thinking if every person story has a happy ending.. how good it will be.. This drama is to do with love kind of things.. yup.. and haf a happy ending.. yup.. is good.. i understand.. but i was thinking.. in reality it isn't.. this show is just telling us to be optismistic ba~~ But i really hope i will have a simple and happy ending for my love life... haha.. i know is long way to go.. to tak abt all these things.. as i still haf tons of things haven accomplished..

A stupid guy... =)

ORd!

Today finally took back my I/C, my gosh.. 2 years has jus passed like tat.. can't imagine tat time really flies..when i received it.. i feel so different.. feel even heavier than before.. i feel tat i have become old le..study is coming soon.. then need to work hard for my careers soon..is like clearing the life stages stage by stage.. Hope tat everything will be successful!

My heart feel so heavy when i leaving my camp today.. is like i going to miss my superiors cos they are the one that go through with us through those days... suddenly feel tat..friends around u.. is so impt.. cos when we people.. come to a certain stage of life.. friends and u just have to part.. can only hold on to the memories... What we can only do is cherish them when they are by our side..

Sometimes.... i thought i should take up the courage and try it....but.. seems like things can't work out.. I dunno how, when, why, where and what is gonna happen..in the future.. i jus sick and tired of being ***** Some times i doubt myself.... am i the one...or what?? Sorry if u all dun understand this paragraph.. but i just want to vent it out by writing.. is ok..

ANyway~~~recently.. went to botanic gardens to have picnics.. was really fun!! will upload pics next blogging..

I am really tired from works... recently...mental stress.. and so on...haven't have a good rest.. Sometimes I really need a warm and sweet hug.. really need it.. cos sometimes.. i tot i am gonna fall... maybe is jus tat i give myself too high of expectations~~


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I just a simple and ordinary guy....=(

nothing to do~~

Recently has been working very hard.. very tired.. jus hope to get more money.. cos i going to haf a big spending.. lots of money is spending.. below are some pics.. with my sis and myself.. haha.. no mood to talk le.. tired!






When are u appearing?

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Just come back from msia.. went there to eat shop and blah... hahaha.. wll post some pics tml or the following days.. during msia trip... Anyway.. recently was really very happy.. cos i got my confirmation letter in RMIT uni at SIM le.. 3rd aug go sch lor!! haha.. going to step ibto sch life again... again.. i feeling very excited.. need to prepare myself for it le.. cos long time didnt touch books le... Went to double o yesterday night... It was real fun... Its been a long time since i play till so crazy.. Dance like one dancing machine.. and i was so high... so happy.. keep jumping at the dance floor with my friends.. hahaha... The feeling was beyond "GODLIKE!!" A wonderful night for me yesterday!

Mmmm...regarding the previous post... I tink tat time i freak emo shit... is like sorry la.. i tink i am really pessismistic guy to max at times.. I hold the memories of it... just that...it comes at the wrong time...wrong age..and many many wrongs... But just that when u are really in love u heck everything..u lost ur logic and everything... and the only thing u choose is to believe... u agree? hahaah...

hope we all met the right one.... and oso enjoy our life till the fullest.. happily each and everyday.. haf a wonderful night.. wan an.. byeeeee... =) dancing wan sui! hahaa

In this middle of the night.....

Suddenly woke up from my sleep....@4 am was feeling kind of emo ... cos dreamt of something that i used to be happy with... but it was eventually just a dream...a bad dream ba... I just can't sleep back... cos in my mind flashes of the memories keep appearing... Woke up... and see those pics that i already hid it for quite some time.... i miss it so much... but i feel so stupid... i feel that i am the most dump person in this entire universe... cos i can't believe that i chose to believe intially.... i am such an idiot... that i cause misery to myself in the end... Aren't i a rational person?? how come i did this to myself.. haiz.. why...

Anyway... its been a long time since i blog le... yup.. i already stand down from duties... no more duties for me... currently i am working le... waiting for my uni... suddenly i felt like i am a free man.. no more burden... no more ns.. no more shit work.. so happy.. but there are lots of memories in this camp... during this 1 year plus of staying in the camp...cos i encounter lots of things, happy things, sad things... and blah.. haha.. now waiting to get my i/c...

long time nv meet my friends le... went out with them recently... we played basketball.. like crazy... tired like a shit!!! but i love this feeling.. cos that is our passion... haha... Went to eat with jy qw and jo too.. here are some of the pics..

A happy week..

Is been a week that i blog.. haf been going out with friends to chill, work as usual, basketball training, camp... lots of thoughts haf been in my mind recentlyas there are lots of things happen recently.. are the happy ones.. haha =)

few of my friends recently have been attached.. their relationship have been thru lots of obstacles then in the end they get together... so happy for them.. envy.. hahaha.. all the best to them... =)

Recently watched a movie.. he jus not that into u.. mm... feel lots of emotion when the movie say the last sentence... sometimes the happy ending is being alone.. maybe is true.. becos.. u will find ur trueself again...

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i am waitng patiently...

happy day...

Today i took an off day... cos i am too exhausted about everything.. wanna take a good rest.. haha.. everyday work, duty and so on.. very tiring..

Today went to watch movie with xiao yun... a jap show.. detriot metal city.. at eng wah cinema.. This is the first time in my life watching movie, the cinema got only me and her,which is only 2 person!! excluding the cleaner of course.. pathetic!!! May be watch too early le ba.. 11.10 am!! hahha.. The movie... erm.. ok ok la.. not tat bad.. but the main actress in the movie is omg pretty! Want to watch handsome suite when is launched on 9 th april!!!

After that she went to sch.. i go jp to buy present for my niece.. really dunno wat to buy!! Then i jus get a aeroplane model.. since he always like to look at the plane in the sky when fly..
Bought 2 cds.. andy lau and jacky cheong collection... only 2 for 15 dollars!!! inside all nice de love songs!!

Then went to clementi buddhist temple... Just suddenly feel like going there... is been a long time to go there... Recently.. have been feeling vexed..troubled..messy..tired..stress..low..sad.. is been a long time i that feel happy le.. just wanted some peace, focus and directions... so i went there.. there is only one old lady.. thats all.. no ppl at all.. i sat down there.. pray to the buddha.. quitely sat down there and close my eyes for half an hour...

Then went to gym!!!let out all my strength and frustration again.. Feels good.. hehe.. after wards went to queensway to collect our jersey!! haha.. quite nice.. haha.. Chat with him and have a cup of coffee.. haha.. were discussing about the tai wan trip!! We 2 like freaking excited la!! haha.. can't wait man!!

Tats it for my off day...simple, relax and meaningful ba.. going camp le.. byeeeee....!!

gloomy

Went to friend bday party.. give him my blessing.. it was near Changi jetty.. the place that travels to ubin island..

Feeling very very low, tired, and sick.... whats wrong ? hate it.. i just wan to live everyday happily...
Is simple.. why so hard..

sweet dreams..

Yesterday night.. have a very sweet dream... i dun wanna wake up... how i wish i will be in the dream forever.. haha.. its a secret.. but is a very happy one..i wanna share with u guys but i wish it will come true.. tats y dun wan to share .. haha..

Have a bruise leg today.. dunno how i get one.. sianz.. pain like shit...

gtg go camp le... hope i will go into the dream again..=) wan an..

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Recently.. was very busy.. i try to go to any places that my friends call me to go, some more need to work.. gym.. this and that... kind of shag out...but the feeling was nice.. i jus knock off.. in minutes when i lie on the bed..

Oh ya.. promoted to corporal first class recently... haha.. good la.. money increase abit.. but more responsibilty.. but is nice to have this rank cos.. my platoon i am the only one to have it.. haha..

nothing much to say le.. hope everyone is enjoying their life.. recently keep looking for meaningful lyrics in the net.. and listen to the song.. is nice and peaceful.. it sings a person thoughts.. this song i want to share with u is zhen shi 真实 by zhang hui mei... meaning reality but couldn't find the song in imeem..

歌手：张惠妹 专辑：真实

你说的话在我心中生了根

爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉另外一个人

我等等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子
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Somewhere at a particular place of my heart...

fruitful day

Today went to SIM uni for the course briefing of the RMIT offer de marketing course...was raining heavily.. but still never stop me from going there.. cos i really want to know what izzit about and so on.. When reach there.. was the first few of them.. i went in to the lecture theatre to take a nap.. plug in my mp3 and really doze off for that 10 to 15 mins.. hahaha!!

When i wake up~~ to my surprise that the whole theatre is full of ladies!! guys are quite handful!! What the~~~ My left and right also ladies! Was quite surprise that so many female take this course... Hahaha.. still dunno yet.. when start of sch then we will know again.. When saw the video clip and motivations given by the lecturers.. was really excited and enthu to study my best to get the best result!! shall see again!!

After that went out with MK they all to queensway.. to find shops to buy our new jersey for our basketball team!is been quite some time that we make le.. In the end manage to find and they all vote me to design the logo!! my god... i dun wanna disappoint them.. jus try my best ba.. haha..

The flu has already with me for quite some time le.. shit.. cannot recover lei... very xin ku... irritating! sick ar!

going camp le.. the pathetic camp.. haha.. wan an.. friends.. =)

bad bad~~

Went to IT fair.. wa lao.. SO many many people.. Haiz.. actually tot of buying a desktop in the end the particular model no more stock.. wth!! nvm.. i oso not in a rush.. wait and see then..met kuan ta..in marina..in the end we go home together.. and after tat go his house.. play games and watch soccer match.. manutd lost to liverpool.. my goodnes..hAIZ.. sway ar.. hope they can pick up themselves and strive forward and get all trophies!!

Is just like life... beautiful things never last.. sometimes happy.. sometimes bad.. sometimes disappointing.. sometimes touched.. ups and downs.. is depend on us how are we going pick ourselves up and deal with it bravely! is all in oursleves.. the mentality.. To face it.. and solve it.. overcome it.. We will then improve, become stronger.. better.. and happier.. This is the life of a human being..

gtg.. booking in to the camp le.. good nights.. life goes on.. =)
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Below is the lyrics for jie tuo (解脱).. meaning let go, is the 2nd song in my playlist, is a very nice and healing song.. lets see how beautiful is the lyrics are..

主唱:张惠妹

爱是不夜城

回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾

我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人

越想越伤人

枯坐到清晨

阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头

不要爱我的人再担心我

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦
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dead beat

jus come back from friend bday party... the finale was drinking.. wa lao.. help my friend to ta han his alcohol.... cos he falling soon.. in the end i oso jia lat!! but still not tat bad.. cos i still can blog now.. haha.. tml will be a good day for me.. going out with jimmy's gal friends... and
IT fair..haha.. and watch MAN UNITED vs LIVERPOOL at 8.40 pm!!! swee swee!!!

wish my friend guan soon.. a very happy birthday.. hope he enjoy his day!! happy 21st year old.. all the best to him..

Shit tml still need to go for training.. dunno still can bo.. now like wan to die liao.. okie.. bye.. nights.. my friend.. may u all haf ur impossible wish in ur dreams..let it relish it in ur dreams first.. haha sweet sweet one!! wan an! =)

nice old song

here without u

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

sucky feeling..

I feel as if i have lost an important thing in my life..

It has lost and it will never be found back anymore..

I miss it..

I think about it..

nothing can describe my emotions...

nothing...

我只能含着眼泪, 默默的离开...

break down

Yesterday my body finally break down.. cough, sore throat, flu and slight fever... all comes together.. Some more today went to work.. shag to the max.. mind in a blank.. like computer hang..
haha.. I dunno y i still wanna go work also?

Tml still need to go for training to swim for 20 laps, my goodness! Though sick.. but still wan go train.. take my life better.. i wan to shag till i can't move!! till can't think of anything but sleep..

Going camp le .. tired~ hope recover soon..


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All i want is u to be happy....nothing matters..

jus feel like blogging now~~

Actually i also dunno wat to write over here now.. jus wanna login and write something here.. before i go to camp.. sianz..

Mmm.. recently I am to free le.. Basically, i got nothing much in mind... till i worry and think of some stupid things.. haha.. tat one cannot tell.. haha.. Mmm.. recently trying to keep myself busy with workouts in gym.. carrying weighs... and seems like one week nv go le.. then suddenly i can carry the more heavy ones.. feel stronger le.. haha.. maybe one week i rested my muscles.. it heals a bit.. haha.. Likes the feeling in the gym.. when training.. i am using my maximum strength and limits.. some time when i doing the last set, when the tightness of the muscle isstretch to the limit.. I would even let out "Arghhh!!!!" roar!!! hahha.. the feeling is so nice.. is a kind of destress methods... whenever i feel stress, unhappy, sad, disappointed, happy or whatever... gym is my fav place for me.. I will let go my everything in there.. haha.. guys u shd go try try!!

Jus watch finish the channel 8 show... 9 pm de.. "dream catcher"... in the show That guy sato say "I have waited for u all the time, i dun mind to wait for u this time round.." The gal say "Why u so foolish? is not worth it!" The guy sato said "Even have to wait for u is bliss for me..Some ppl in their life also can't find a person that worth to wait for... but i did... so i feel bliss.. no matter what is ur decision.. as long as u can be happy with it... u will have my blessing.. and thats my love for u.." When i heard that... wow~~ i was thinking.. in the realistic world.. how many of them are like him?? Is so touching.. haha

Recently got too much time.. and haf think through alots of things... and feel like sharing with u guys.. Mmm.. start from where first lei??? ok love ba... recently oso heard alot from ppl around me.. thier love life and blah~~ I come to a concluszion... In love.. there is no point forcing.. it takes 2 hand to clap.. Sometime when u are so into it.. that u forget that u are actually being to stubborn unnoticingly.. though u know this is wrong.. is no logic.. but love makes u go against ur logic.. sometime.. is so powerful.. I found out that... if we really love this person.. is not just about giving your heart to him or her.. showing to him or her how sincere u are.. and how much u love him or her..is not about u... is about her.. whether wat is her decision that she feels happy... If she made a decision.. and she will feel happy with it.. i believe.. If u really loves him or her.. do respect the decision...seeing ur love ones happy and seeing them smile is our everything.. nothing matters... love is so powerful..vulnerable.. touching.. and amazing.. those already haf thier love ones.. pls really cherish them with ur best.. cos sometimes.. love can be really vulnerable..

And i also wanna dedicate something for my mum, cos i tink she is the only women in the world that really loves, care and undestand me.. whenever i am down due to watever things.. no matter how worse is the thing.. she nv scold me.. she hug me.. and she will always say.."boy dun tear...mum is here.." hahaha...though feel like mummy boy but i love it at times.. cos is so heart warming..

Mmm.. hopefully i can get the confirmation letter of getting into uni soon.. Can't wait to proceed to sch life again.. i believe it will be very challenging.. fun and can get to know bunch new freinds again.. but dunno this time round i am lucky enough to get to know bunch of good freinds like my sec and poly freinds.. haha.. wish everybody good luck! haha

Going to camp soon.. wan an bye.. byee..

few pics below to show u all!! =) have dinner with my family!