gloomy

Went to friend bday party.. give him my blessing.. it was near Changi jetty.. the place that travels to ubin island..

Feeling very very low, tired, and sick.... whats wrong ? hate it.. i just wan to live everyday happily...
Is simple.. why so hard..

sweet dreams..

Yesterday night.. have a very sweet dream... i dun wanna wake up... how i wish i will be in the dream forever.. haha.. its a secret.. but is a very happy one..i wanna share with u guys but i wish it will come true.. tats y dun wan to share .. haha..

Have a bruise leg today.. dunno how i get one.. sianz.. pain like shit...

gtg go camp le... hope i will go into the dream again..=) wan an..

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Recently.. was very busy.. i try to go to any places that my friends call me to go, some more need to work.. gym.. this and that... kind of shag out...but the feeling was nice.. i jus knock off.. in minutes when i lie on the bed..

Oh ya.. promoted to corporal first class recently... haha.. good la.. money increase abit.. but more responsibilty.. but is nice to have this rank cos.. my platoon i am the only one to have it.. haha..

nothing much to say le.. hope everyone is enjoying their life.. recently keep looking for meaningful lyrics in the net.. and listen to the song.. is nice and peaceful.. it sings a person thoughts.. this song i want to share with u is zhen shi 真实 by zhang hui mei... meaning reality but couldn't find the song in imeem..

歌手：张惠妹 专辑：真实

你说的话在我心中生了根

爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉另外一个人

我等等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子
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Somewhere at a particular place of my heart...

fruitful day

Today went to SIM uni for the course briefing of the RMIT offer de marketing course...was raining heavily.. but still never stop me from going there.. cos i really want to know what izzit about and so on.. When reach there.. was the first few of them.. i went in to the lecture theatre to take a nap.. plug in my mp3 and really doze off for that 10 to 15 mins.. hahaha!!

When i wake up~~ to my surprise that the whole theatre is full of ladies!! guys are quite handful!! What the~~~ My left and right also ladies! Was quite surprise that so many female take this course... Hahaha.. still dunno yet.. when start of sch then we will know again.. When saw the video clip and motivations given by the lecturers.. was really excited and enthu to study my best to get the best result!! shall see again!!

After that went out with MK they all to queensway.. to find shops to buy our new jersey for our basketball team!is been quite some time that we make le.. In the end manage to find and they all vote me to design the logo!! my god... i dun wanna disappoint them.. jus try my best ba.. haha..

The flu has already with me for quite some time le.. shit.. cannot recover lei... very xin ku... irritating! sick ar!

going camp le.. the pathetic camp.. haha.. wan an.. friends.. =)

bad bad~~

Went to IT fair.. wa lao.. SO many many people.. Haiz.. actually tot of buying a desktop in the end the particular model no more stock.. wth!! nvm.. i oso not in a rush.. wait and see then..met kuan ta..in marina..in the end we go home together.. and after tat go his house.. play games and watch soccer match.. manutd lost to liverpool.. my goodnes..hAIZ.. sway ar.. hope they can pick up themselves and strive forward and get all trophies!!

Is just like life... beautiful things never last.. sometimes happy.. sometimes bad.. sometimes disappointing.. sometimes touched.. ups and downs.. is depend on us how are we going pick ourselves up and deal with it bravely! is all in oursleves.. the mentality.. To face it.. and solve it.. overcome it.. We will then improve, become stronger.. better.. and happier.. This is the life of a human being..

gtg.. booking in to the camp le.. good nights.. life goes on.. =)
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Below is the lyrics for jie tuo (解脱).. meaning let go, is the 2nd song in my playlist, is a very nice and healing song.. lets see how beautiful is the lyrics are..

主唱:张惠妹

爱是不夜城

回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾

我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人

越想越伤人

枯坐到清晨

阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头

不要爱我的人再担心我

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦
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dead beat

jus come back from friend bday party... the finale was drinking.. wa lao.. help my friend to ta han his alcohol.... cos he falling soon.. in the end i oso jia lat!! but still not tat bad.. cos i still can blog now.. haha.. tml will be a good day for me.. going out with jimmy's gal friends... and
IT fair..haha.. and watch MAN UNITED vs LIVERPOOL at 8.40 pm!!! swee swee!!!

wish my friend guan soon.. a very happy birthday.. hope he enjoy his day!! happy 21st year old.. all the best to him..

Shit tml still need to go for training.. dunno still can bo.. now like wan to die liao.. okie.. bye.. nights.. my friend.. may u all haf ur impossible wish in ur dreams..let it relish it in ur dreams first.. haha sweet sweet one!! wan an! =)

nice old song

here without u

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

sucky feeling..

I feel as if i have lost an important thing in my life..

It has lost and it will never be found back anymore..

I miss it..

I think about it..

nothing can describe my emotions...

nothing...

我只能含着眼泪, 默默的离开...

break down

Yesterday my body finally break down.. cough, sore throat, flu and slight fever... all comes together.. Some more today went to work.. shag to the max.. mind in a blank.. like computer hang..
haha.. I dunno y i still wanna go work also?

Tml still need to go for training to swim for 20 laps, my goodness! Though sick.. but still wan go train.. take my life better.. i wan to shag till i can't move!! till can't think of anything but sleep..

Going camp le .. tired~ hope recover soon..


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All i want is u to be happy....nothing matters..

jus feel like blogging now~~

Actually i also dunno wat to write over here now.. jus wanna login and write something here.. before i go to camp.. sianz..

Mmm.. recently I am to free le.. Basically, i got nothing much in mind... till i worry and think of some stupid things.. haha.. tat one cannot tell.. haha.. Mmm.. recently trying to keep myself busy with workouts in gym.. carrying weighs... and seems like one week nv go le.. then suddenly i can carry the more heavy ones.. feel stronger le.. haha.. maybe one week i rested my muscles.. it heals a bit.. haha.. Likes the feeling in the gym.. when training.. i am using my maximum strength and limits.. some time when i doing the last set, when the tightness of the muscle isstretch to the limit.. I would even let out "Arghhh!!!!" roar!!! hahha.. the feeling is so nice.. is a kind of destress methods... whenever i feel stress, unhappy, sad, disappointed, happy or whatever... gym is my fav place for me.. I will let go my everything in there.. haha.. guys u shd go try try!!

Jus watch finish the channel 8 show... 9 pm de.. "dream catcher"... in the show That guy sato say "I have waited for u all the time, i dun mind to wait for u this time round.." The gal say "Why u so foolish? is not worth it!" The guy sato said "Even have to wait for u is bliss for me..Some ppl in their life also can't find a person that worth to wait for... but i did... so i feel bliss.. no matter what is ur decision.. as long as u can be happy with it... u will have my blessing.. and thats my love for u.." When i heard that... wow~~ i was thinking.. in the realistic world.. how many of them are like him?? Is so touching.. haha

Recently got too much time.. and haf think through alots of things... and feel like sharing with u guys.. Mmm.. start from where first lei??? ok love ba... recently oso heard alot from ppl around me.. thier love life and blah~~ I come to a concluszion... In love.. there is no point forcing.. it takes 2 hand to clap.. Sometime when u are so into it.. that u forget that u are actually being to stubborn unnoticingly.. though u know this is wrong.. is no logic.. but love makes u go against ur logic.. sometime.. is so powerful.. I found out that... if we really love this person.. is not just about giving your heart to him or her.. showing to him or her how sincere u are.. and how much u love him or her..is not about u... is about her.. whether wat is her decision that she feels happy... If she made a decision.. and she will feel happy with it.. i believe.. If u really loves him or her.. do respect the decision...seeing ur love ones happy and seeing them smile is our everything.. nothing matters... love is so powerful..vulnerable.. touching.. and amazing.. those already haf thier love ones.. pls really cherish them with ur best.. cos sometimes.. love can be really vulnerable..

And i also wanna dedicate something for my mum, cos i tink she is the only women in the world that really loves, care and undestand me.. whenever i am down due to watever things.. no matter how worse is the thing.. she nv scold me.. she hug me.. and she will always say.."boy dun tear...mum is here.." hahaha...though feel like mummy boy but i love it at times.. cos is so heart warming..

Mmm.. hopefully i can get the confirmation letter of getting into uni soon.. Can't wait to proceed to sch life again.. i believe it will be very challenging.. fun and can get to know bunch new freinds again.. but dunno this time round i am lucky enough to get to know bunch of good freinds like my sec and poly freinds.. haha.. wish everybody good luck! haha

Going to camp soon.. wan an bye.. byee..

few pics below to show u all!! =) have dinner with my family!