2010~~

In this year~~ well.. there are some dark moments in my life.. during the early part of the year... but i managed to get through them and find back my focus... but i think the heaven treats me well too... let me enjoyed with my friends.. and met her... though... we 2 are not meant to be... but i feel so happy to have u company me.. i enjoyed myself tat day... this is the very first time.. tat spend my whole entire day.. just with u... there were sharing, laughter, joy, happiness and openness when i with you... I really dunno what might happen next... but.. i really appreciate the way we are now... is enough for me... but i really hope... one fine day.. she will open her heart and feel me... and hope it may not be too late..

The other thing i wanna share is that... my hard work pays off.. I strive very hard for my sch work.. and finally.. i got what i wanted.. As years pass.. i finally understand the right way suitable for me to handle school works.. maybe after so much failure.. the experiences i gained! i finally understand!

2010 is jus the next day.. would like to have some wishes in this coming year..

1.) My families healthy and happy!

2.) My friends healthy and happy!

3.) My School work and result maintain at Distinction level!

4.) Scold lesser or no bad words!

5.) Get good sales from my work!

6.) Lastly, which i will also wish every year.. but never it had come true before.. that is to find a girl that loves me with her heart and and vice versa from me too... i know is hard... but still i wanna wish for that!

Time flies... here come new challenges in the new year 2010! No matter what are the problems and obstacles are... We must always.. face them and not avoid them.. and we will definitely able to overcome them and become a better person... This is the purpose of life!

Happy new year! May all of us happy!!! =) huat ar!

merry christmas

My little dream fulfilled today.. though everything is so simple and ordinary.. but it was enough.. =)

hApPy

Eric jus came back to Singapore.. has been in Australia for almost a year ba .. suddenly becos of his return, our old friend start to gather and has lots of fun together... this kind of happiness is not everyone would have it.. so I really appreciate ... the bonding of between us is just so amazing... I hope the rest of the few weeks.. we can have more memories before eric go back to Australia.. Time is precious... and we should fill them up with happniess .. =)

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I have been battling with my heart... really dunno wat to do.... is like so hard to control... trying my best to overcome it..

but i am already quite satisfied with the current situation... and very happy with it le .. =)

do it right! with belief!

Do it like a man.. with your conscience clear... with your heart to do it right and do it good! No other shitty ways to achieve your task but your hard work with sincerity and passion!

Never regret on things I have done, cos i know I always did my best in whatever i does, and is worth while to do it!

Nothing in this world, comes easily to us... we got to fight for it... do something about it...in order to achieve what we want in our life!

Picked up yourself from where you fall, and leap, and walk and run again! Our life will move on and awaits happiness and challenge ahead..Always believe life will get more beautiful!

And things will get better... =)

Live our life with a smile!

happy!

Anyway, i am feeling happy.. cos my hard work really pays off.. Got an High Dist for accounting! Dist for Economics and a credit for marketing. But marketing i feel disappointed. I hope to get Dist too.. I really work very hard for tat past few months.. And thanks to jin jing and jia yu and jimmy and those who have helped me... xie xie..=)

Next semester is going to be even harder! I need to get back my focus! I hope to do even better! Yea!

Erm ... things are getting better... I decided not to hold grudges.. as i dun like to be angry.. is so terrible... so i just have to be forgiving.. but just let nature take it course.. though... i do feel affected by what she said to me.. i just can't believe she has the heart to say those things.. it just can't erase so easily... shitty..

Been working.. feeling so sian.. at times.. i miss my my sec sch friends.. my teng nan bb friend.. where the hell are u all? Faster finish exam lei! i wanna have a great match with u all! The laughter, sweat and brotherhood we had.. is amazing... awesome..

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I think is time... i got to let it goes.... I think we can be a really good friend... but i certainly know that u aren't the one... I just have to accept the fact...

million pieces..

Every time near the year end.. it should be a very happy season... i often get upset... Why am i always so sad.. dun i deserve to be happy?

When u told me that.. do u know... it hurts me so much and badly... maybe i am just nothing to u...

I think i shuold disappeared in your life... i will... as this is what u wanted..

hurt one more time..

I dunno what to do? i really dunno... I only know.. i want her to be happy and when she need help or anything.. she would call me..

There are always obstacles for me.. y mine can't be beautiful like others?

When she say out those comments...is like crystal breaking into million pieces... i can only hide it...

if only you want me to die to touched your heart, i would willing to die a million time to show it... but there is already good game for me... can't even show it..

you are beautiful ost

I heard this korean song from this drama.. You are beautiful

The song was so nice and it happens that they got provide translation for the songs..

The lyrics and song was nice... that it touches my heart when i hear the song and know the meaning of it.. awesome.. =)

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Shouldn't have done it

Should have ignored it

Like it wouldn't be seen,

Like it couldn't be seen

I don't think I should have seen you

Should have run away,

Should have pretended not to hear,

like it wouldn't be heard,

like it couldn't be heard...

I shouldn't have listened to your love...

Without a word, you made me know love

Without a word, you gave me your love

Made me feel myself with your every breath,

then u ran away

Without a word love left me

Without a word love tossed me aside

Not knowing what to say,

my lips must have been surprised,

because you came without a word...

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Sometimes.. you wanted to see that person so badly... but u can't.....

fallen soul

i knew it.. i already knew it.. but i am so stubborn..

the feeling was so bad... feel so down...so sux... so lousy...so hopeless...

I can be so manly in so many aspects of decisions.. and doings.... why i am worst than anything when i comes to this....

I am just an extreme idiot.. and has been such a ultimate failure in this aspect....

I am total failure.....=''(

think too much again!

I really dunno what to do... what should i do.. what am i doing.. and what the hell am i doing?

Found that i couldn't control feelings at times! Yup.. i think i need to learn that..

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So tired nowadays.. no life at all.. one week work six days... working alone there.. feel so lonely at times.. After exam.. no rest.. straight work.. oh man... i am really tired of living at times.. cui ar.. Sometimes.. when i really need someone there for me.. there isn't any.... duh... of course.. because i dun have any~~ .. hhaha! can only grumble to my poor friends.. LOL!

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will u feel it?

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Dunno why i am so demoralized .. feeling so sux ...

I am not good enough for u...

Feeling was strong..

The feeling was so damn strong... till i do such a silly thing for her.. but luckily she didn't know.. now i understand your inner self will outshine everything.. i really truly understand now.. LOL ! Haha!

I think i will continue my silly doings.. because i know is worth it.. =)

Mr god.. please help me! LOL!

tired....

yesterday went to meet up with Rachel.. knowing that she is still doing good.. i am happy for her... hahaha.. she didn't eat.. see me eat onli.. say wanna jian fei.. typical women dialog.. LOL.. anyway.. forgotten her bday.. i am so bad ...LOL..pls pardon me.. i was too obsessed with marketing, accounting and macroeconomics....during that period.. i tink she really feel very sad tat i forgetten her bday.. hahaha.. LOL..

Today started work.. thing work quite ok.. everything goes quite ok.. today customer all like me.. smile and joke with me.. so nice..cheers my day up.. until that f*%# face woman shout at me"stop looking at ur hp!!" WTF!!! freak woman... see hp also kena from u...silly rule.. wat if anything happen at home if dun see the phone.. all brainless.. implement this kind of physco rule...haiz.. spoil my day..

Though study is tiring.. but i feel tat is more fun with them around... miss their laughter.. especially her .. LOL .. really funny.. nvm this holiday i shall work and play.. jus chill and relax my mind and get ready for next semester battle.. i am going to put in my very best!! 2 more years.. i am no longer a student anymore.. no more student privileges le.. better enjoy first! haha!

Today my mum say me... i always ask for perfection.. in terms of most of the thing.... and this kind of attitude is no good... cos u always be grumbling and nv happy with what u have...as outcome is not what u wanted..even the slightest mistake... when she say that to me,,, i didn't realize that i am tat sort of ppl?? did i? maybe i shd be lenient in certain things in my life.. dun too extreme ba.. maybe.. i will try change..

Tml is another working day... so sianz.. nothing to do now and dun feel like sleeping yet.. so share some stuff here..

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A sharp bitterness

Those images comes again... it just makes me feel so down...

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gloomy...

Dunno why... recently.. as days goes by... i feel so moody... i seem to smile and laugh... but deep in me.. i am not happy at all... pessimistic thoughts keep flooding me ... whats wrong with me?

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i hope u can come to my life..

nice and meaning ful song..

Heard karen sang this song yesterday.. very nice and touching... feel like sharing with u guys..

知道

她让你憔悴许多

她让你不知所措

她一句一动你不停的对我说

我微笑倾听你说

我却越听越心痛

怎么你说的不是我

他比我多了什么

让你愿意耐心等候

你让我憔悴很多

你让我不知所措

你一句一动我的心被牵着走

她不经意的走过

你就把我给冷落

嫉妒把我给吞没

她比我多了什么

让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么

我想知道她让你疯狂为什么

我知道做的和她没有不同

但是我却不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多

在你心中她和我有什么不同

我知道我比她付出的还多

可是我总换不了你的心动

ho~哦...

我知道了她哪里比我好很多

在你心中我永远不可能让你心动

我知道我比她付出的还多

可是我在你心中没有她多

stir emotion suddenly..

Yesterday jus finish the Econs paper... the last paper.. finally... this past few weeks.. i have been working really hard.. to do my best in the exam... Though it was realy tiring.. but i think.. is worth it.. cos i know i have tried my very best, no matter what is the result.. i have no regrets..

For the past few weeks or month... i did not sleep with peace.. did not go out chill... lock myself in the room.. after eat or bath.. then mug.. sometimes.. can't go into my mind le.. then sleep.. then wake up again.. sometimes.. really no mood le.. sleep again.. but every time the pressure and stress wakes me up again.. terrible.. During that period of time.. i often has to struggle between tiredness and studies..i tried to overcome it.. But ultimately.. i hope i can get the results.. i want..pls god!! help me!!

Today after exam.. went to bugis for singing k.. in between plan a surprise for karen.. a gal from my uni.. hehe.. i tink she really ben ben de.. i tot it was quite obvious.. but she still can't realise it.. Gave her a cake.. sang her a happy birthday song.. and take photos.. with her.. LOL.. can see that she today is so happy.. below.. u can see her blur face!!! which i find it so funny.. LOL.. anyway.. hope u enjoy ur day.. but anyway.. enjoy singing with her after they all left the k box..i hope we could have sing longer.. she is a good singer.. and this is the the first time i sing so many duets with a person.. LOL

The day has jus ended like tat... everytime.. happy times ended so fast.. haha.. but i believe there will be more to come.. anyway has to start exercising.. getting fatter and whiter!! shit!
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Some thoughts again~~

I realise that everytime.. when i feel that way...I thought i was right about what i feel... the outcome will be different..is so disappointing for me... is so hard to accept the fact sometimes... but just haf to accept... I jus do not how should i express myself to u... and i am afraid of doing it..

how good if i am older...

One down!!

Today have my marketing paper... was quite ok.. not that bad.. but i scribble any how.. write till i also dunno what i writing.. no structure at all... but luckily some of the terms i still remember.. hopefully.. my marketing result will be ok!! going to start to revise my acct le.. but before that.. wanna share a song with u all.. old and nice song which is sing by fang da tong!! Below are the lyrics..

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (Glenn Medeiros)

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too`

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Dedicated for those lovely couples.. =)

enjoy.. gonna chiong le!

gloomy saturday..

22nd and 23rd there are 4 ppl birthday!! My sister and jody on the 22nd of oct Guo xian and bing jie on the 23rd of oct... Happy birthday to all of u all.. haha..

studying is so tiring... especially exam time.. haix.. but jus have to bear with it man.. actually come in also dunno what to write..jus feel damn bored..

oh ya.. recently.. heard a true story from some where... is about a couple.. mmm.. When this couple is breaking up, because the guy was very "hua xin", has been flirting with lots of ladies while being with her.. and in the end he fell in love with other person..

When this couple was together.. this girl loves raining.. she will go to the rain and being drenced by the rain.. The guy often will ask her.. why u do not wan me to drenched with you under the rain at the time when they are together? She will often jus smile at him and do not want to tell him the answer.

When they are breaking up on this particular day, the guy asked her.. sorry about what i have done, but i hope we still friends.. and the guy wanted to clarify his doubts wih her, and he asked "Why you everytime like to go into the rain and being drenched and do not wan me to acc u in the rain"

The gal answered sadly "When the time i being with u, i know u are jus like the wind.. u will leave me any moment for another gal.. I was prepared.but often.. i am sad and will tear about the fact... I like to go into the rain myself is because i do not want u to know that i am crying"

When finally he realised everything... his heart sinks... but what happen next i not sure...


HAHA.. this is a true story from someone....jus share share abit.. i was kind of pity for her.. when i heard that actually she was hiding from her bf that she is crying.. by choosing to to the rain..

But anyway, hope she had a good ending... but anyway.. sometimes reality is just so cruel.. we just have to face it.. ok thats all.. got to get back with my work le.. wat a gloomy saturday for me..

fighting with time...

Has been mugging like poly times... but there are some differencs.. now without my clever jimmy... funny bing jie... annoying jing jing.... and attitude michelle.....

Those stuff that i not sure got to do reasearch myself.. no one to ask.. now study till bored got no more jokes and chat.... haiz.. suddenly miss poly times.. hahaa

tiring day.. everytime energetic angel zhi bin need to fight with the sleepy devil zhi bin... really tired man... see those book.. omg... is like~~~sianz lo.. but bo bian.. determination!!! muz go on!

can't wait for holidays to come.. wanna have a good rest and great fun!!! DO NOT STOP ME!! LOL... After which .. let me become a DEVIL!!! LOL

i tink i too stress le ba.. spouting nonsence here and there... yup just come in and tok rubbish abit.. gonna goes off le.. slp liao... nights....

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我梦到哪里你都在...

monday bluesss~~

Few days ago.. went out with her to catch a movie..a cartoon call something something meatball de.. for get le.. haha.. it was a funny show... haha.. hope she enjoys it.. haha.. She say tt tat was her second cartoon she ever watch in a cinema... hehe..

time is running out soon and there are chapters of acct and econ, i have not finish study.. sianz.. Feeling so lost and helpless at times.. jus bo bian.. can only depend on myself to figure out... In uni is so hard to approach teacher to ask questions... everything is urself research.. is all abt discipline.. and willingness... terrible.. sianzation ar... During my sec and poly life.. teachers and lecturers are always ready for us to ask and approach.. but now.. äll ask through email la.. if not can't la.. sianz la.. -______-"""

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Seems like things can't work out... i jus couldn't be myself when with her...there isn't any chem.. though she seems so perfect... I jus hope we can be good friends ba.. =)... anyway.. gonna focus on exam le... i start to panic liao!
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Back~~~ =)

Hello... so sorry.. hahaha.. its been so so so long tat i updated the blog.. today suddenly feel like update it.. haha..

There are alot of reasons that i did not update it.. was busy, was very depressed abt something, forgotten abt it, and so on... Yup.. tat time came back from tai wan.. have a really meaningful trip.. i shd say..went thee for 9 days... have lots lots of fun with my group of friends.. took alot of pics.. tat period was my happiest period in my life... able to go to holiday with a group of band brothers were really a very happy thing.. really thanks them for coming into my life... we really cherish tat period of time.. hahaha.. i believe as time flies.. we will be getting more and more busy.. will be very hard to ge together again.. but one thing for sure is tat..BASKETBALL will aslways link s together... hope we will do well in our school life... =)

Left the camp for almost 3 to 4 months... at times.. look back.. seems so fast.. my one semester is also finishing soon.. haha.. and my dear RSM also have left singapore.. and went to brunei... Learnt alot from him and think back.. feel that he really took care of me alot... i miss those days again.. hahha.. though was tiring.. but..alot of laughter.. at night.. we share our problems.. and blah.... and was so happy that few dys back.. my junior and men called me.. asking me .. how was life? and am i doing wel.. so happy that they still rem me.. hahaha.. after my exam i gonna catch up with them!.. haha

My semester is finishing soon.. been in SIM- RMIT uni almost 2 months plus... i suppose.. met quite alot of new friends.... though.. at times feel tat we are still not tat close.. but i believe times shall bring us together closer ba... Recenly.. things are geting harder.. trying to do my best to overcome them...i gonna do it!!

There was another happy thing happen in my life.. is tat... i get contact back with one of my primary sch friend.. is a gal.. which during primary six.. i got a crush on her.. hahaha.. think back.. was so kiddish... but tat was true.. yup.. get contact back with her.. been going out with her this while.. knowing tat she has been doing very well.. feel happy for her... Dunno y.. everytime while waiting for her ... my heart beats like no body business.. feel so gan jiong.. haha.. the feeling is weird.. i dun understand why i have this feeling.. trying find out again.. but really happy tat i contact back with her.. i nv tot tat this day would ever happen.. =) On her bday.. i made something for her.. hope she sees le.. would be surprise and happy ba.. tats all i wish for her.. haha...

oh ya...jia yu 22 bday.. one of my best gf..haha.. know each other since we were sec one.. hahah.. felt so sorry for her.. when her bday.. it falls on our test date.. couldn't really have a proper celebration... but is its ok.. we will have great fun when dec.. sch holiday.. anyway.. stay healthy and happy with ur bf!!=)

Recently.. there are alot of dilemas in my mind.. sometimes.. i jus dunno whether izzit true.. alot of things was so puzzled.. but i tink again.. only time will tells..

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anyway.. today my friend share her gf made de breakfast with me.... was kind of admired him.. tt he has such a nice gf... love him so much.. hahaha.. a almost forgets what is the feeling like if a person that u love made something for u to eat.. hahaha... ok la.. i tink i really tok quite alot.. is exam times.. gonna prepare well.. i hope to do well.. tok again next time.. slping lo... =)

Tai wan tml..

Yup time pass damn fast...Before we went to NS we were planing about taiwan trip.. and 2 years have passed.. tml is our trip.. i am so excited.. Really hope that everything will run smoothly... everybody will enjoy ba... =)

Just now while pacing up my room, i found my sec 4 graduate cd, i was kind of shock... cos i didn't rem i got that cd.. haha.. Then i play the cd.. oh my goodness.. It was videos of us when we are sec1... my face like one blur sotong la.. everyone is so cute... i found that all of us have change tremendously... some .. i almost cant rem them.. wow.. is been 9 years ever since i graduate from there.. going to 10 years le... But things have shown.. though our appearances have changed some how... but our friendship kuan ta, meng kiat, wei xiang, guo xian, wee hon, and hwee khiam and eric.. have never changed at all... finally we have our very own trip... things and surrounding have changed..our feelings haven't changed at all... i can't imagine... we all play basketball in our thirties and fourties.. and maybe 60s... HAHHA.. i hope we will jus continue to play..

I realise something... nthing is forever.. only ur parents and buddies love for u is forever...Some will be lucky.. if they meet the right one.. then u will have additional.. hehe....

getting restless...

I am really getting bored and very bo liao.. every day work.. till late night.. so no life.... hope school can faster reopen.. 3rd august...
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At work.. I wanted to try my best to hit the sales figure... but seems like i am the only one that is interested... my full - timer colleague.. dun even care.. wat the helll... i am just a part timer.. i try my best to bring up the sales figure.. u slacking there.. never come to work.. also never tell me.. everything throw to me.. Expect me like superman izzit... please la.. other outlets de full timer so chiong.. why my outlet de like dun even care or bother like tat.., i feel my burden and responisbility is so heavy.. till i can't breathe at times.. cos i promise my boss to do my best for this brand fair.. but the full timer dun even want to coorperate and some more i need to cover for him when the boss check his attendance... why so shit!! u take money .. i also take money ma.. Why u jus can't have a sense of responsibility..want succeed... pls work hard lei!!! sian ar...
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ANdy... you are so stupid.. why are u so so stupid.. why u want to give ur everything watever u do... in the end.. if failure... the one most hurt and sad is u... can u stop giving ur 100 percent when u are doing things.. wat ever izzit!! Stop being so emotional.. pointless.... only u feel the hurt.. nobody else.. but u.. ..
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sorry... suddenly.. feel like scolding myself.. dun think i am crazy or wat la.. i am ok.. jus want to scold myself... haha... okok.. wan an.. byee...

looking forward to go taiwan.. next sunday!!

"FRUITFUL DAY!!" -___-""

ITs been a tieing weekdays.. i have been working very hard for my wrk recently.. because i trying my very best to hit the target given.. Everytime.. when i reach home.. i feel so weak la.. shag..haha.. long time never chiong le ba.. i tink.. But nvm.. yesterday went out with jing jing to shop shop.. haha.. goodness.. go shopping with her is so dangerous la.. spend quite a lot of money la.. this nice la... tat one nice la.. in the end.. those she say look good on me de.. i buy...my god!! spend too much le.. But never mind.. i also got sabo her.. keep saying.. this is nice.. tat one nice on her oso.. in the end she oso spend alot of money.. hahaha.. shopping king and queen! Feel so funny la.. go out qith her... We 2 like uncle and auntie.. buy food and eat at staircase.. my goodnes.. pathetic.. but the feeling is nice la.. like picnic.. haha.. The most stupid thing is we 2 bought ourself a bag.. then in the end..we opened up and use it... we put those clothes tat we bought inside the bag.. instead of carrying the plastic bags.. haha.. supposely to be a new bag fr our sch reopen.. but so fast open and use liao.. haha..,

ANyway..is fun tat day...shop and eat!..below is we 2 took a pic after eat!! hahaha! Anyway!! transformers is showing soon!! i can't wait to watch!!

tots~~

jus finish watching tai wan dramas ~~ very touching.... but was thinking if every person story has a happy ending.. how good it will be.. This drama is to do with love kind of things.. yup.. and haf a happy ending.. yup.. is good.. i understand.. but i was thinking.. in reality it isn't.. this show is just telling us to be optismistic ba~~ But i really hope i will have a simple and happy ending for my love life... haha.. i know is long way to go.. to tak abt all these things.. as i still haf tons of things haven accomplished..

A stupid guy... =)

ORd!

Today finally took back my I/C, my gosh.. 2 years has jus passed like tat.. can't imagine tat time really flies..when i received it.. i feel so different.. feel even heavier than before.. i feel tat i have become old le..study is coming soon.. then need to work hard for my careers soon..is like clearing the life stages stage by stage.. Hope tat everything will be successful!

My heart feel so heavy when i leaving my camp today.. is like i going to miss my superiors cos they are the one that go through with us through those days... suddenly feel tat..friends around u.. is so impt.. cos when we people.. come to a certain stage of life.. friends and u just have to part.. can only hold on to the memories... What we can only do is cherish them when they are by our side..

Sometimes.... i thought i should take up the courage and try it....but.. seems like things can't work out.. I dunno how, when, why, where and what is gonna happen..in the future.. i jus sick and tired of being ***** Some times i doubt myself.... am i the one...or what?? Sorry if u all dun understand this paragraph.. but i just want to vent it out by writing.. is ok..

ANyway~~~recently.. went to botanic gardens to have picnics.. was really fun!! will upload pics next blogging..

I am really tired from works... recently...mental stress.. and so on...haven't have a good rest.. Sometimes I really need a warm and sweet hug.. really need it.. cos sometimes.. i tot i am gonna fall... maybe is jus tat i give myself too high of expectations~~


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I just a simple and ordinary guy....=(

nothing to do~~

Recently has been working very hard.. very tired.. jus hope to get more money.. cos i going to haf a big spending.. lots of money is spending.. below are some pics.. with my sis and myself.. haha.. no mood to talk le.. tired!






When are u appearing?

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Just come back from msia.. went there to eat shop and blah... hahaha.. wll post some pics tml or the following days.. during msia trip... Anyway.. recently was really very happy.. cos i got my confirmation letter in RMIT uni at SIM le.. 3rd aug go sch lor!! haha.. going to step ibto sch life again... again.. i feeling very excited.. need to prepare myself for it le.. cos long time didnt touch books le... Went to double o yesterday night... It was real fun... Its been a long time since i play till so crazy.. Dance like one dancing machine.. and i was so high... so happy.. keep jumping at the dance floor with my friends.. hahaha... The feeling was beyond "GODLIKE!!" A wonderful night for me yesterday!

Mmmm...regarding the previous post... I tink tat time i freak emo shit... is like sorry la.. i tink i am really pessismistic guy to max at times.. I hold the memories of it... just that...it comes at the wrong time...wrong age..and many many wrongs... But just that when u are really in love u heck everything..u lost ur logic and everything... and the only thing u choose is to believe... u agree? hahaah...

hope we all met the right one.... and oso enjoy our life till the fullest.. happily each and everyday.. haf a wonderful night.. wan an.. byeeeee... =) dancing wan sui! hahaa

In this middle of the night.....

Suddenly woke up from my sleep....@4 am was feeling kind of emo ... cos dreamt of something that i used to be happy with... but it was eventually just a dream...a bad dream ba... I just can't sleep back... cos in my mind flashes of the memories keep appearing... Woke up... and see those pics that i already hid it for quite some time.... i miss it so much... but i feel so stupid... i feel that i am the most dump person in this entire universe... cos i can't believe that i chose to believe intially.... i am such an idiot... that i cause misery to myself in the end... Aren't i a rational person?? how come i did this to myself.. haiz.. why...

Anyway... its been a long time since i blog le... yup.. i already stand down from duties... no more duties for me... currently i am working le... waiting for my uni... suddenly i felt like i am a free man.. no more burden... no more ns.. no more shit work.. so happy.. but there are lots of memories in this camp... during this 1 year plus of staying in the camp...cos i encounter lots of things, happy things, sad things... and blah.. haha.. now waiting to get my i/c...

long time nv meet my friends le... went out with them recently... we played basketball.. like crazy... tired like a shit!!! but i love this feeling.. cos that is our passion... haha... Went to eat with jy qw and jo too.. here are some of the pics..

A happy week..

Is been a week that i blog.. haf been going out with friends to chill, work as usual, basketball training, camp... lots of thoughts haf been in my mind recentlyas there are lots of things happen recently.. are the happy ones.. haha =)

few of my friends recently have been attached.. their relationship have been thru lots of obstacles then in the end they get together... so happy for them.. envy.. hahaha.. all the best to them... =)

Recently watched a movie.. he jus not that into u.. mm... feel lots of emotion when the movie say the last sentence... sometimes the happy ending is being alone.. maybe is true.. becos.. u will find ur trueself again...

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i am waitng patiently...

happy day...

Today i took an off day... cos i am too exhausted about everything.. wanna take a good rest.. haha.. everyday work, duty and so on.. very tiring..

Today went to watch movie with xiao yun... a jap show.. detriot metal city.. at eng wah cinema.. This is the first time in my life watching movie, the cinema got only me and her,which is only 2 person!! excluding the cleaner of course.. pathetic!!! May be watch too early le ba.. 11.10 am!! hahha.. The movie... erm.. ok ok la.. not tat bad.. but the main actress in the movie is omg pretty! Want to watch handsome suite when is launched on 9 th april!!!

After that she went to sch.. i go jp to buy present for my niece.. really dunno wat to buy!! Then i jus get a aeroplane model.. since he always like to look at the plane in the sky when fly..
Bought 2 cds.. andy lau and jacky cheong collection... only 2 for 15 dollars!!! inside all nice de love songs!!

Then went to clementi buddhist temple... Just suddenly feel like going there... is been a long time to go there... Recently.. have been feeling vexed..troubled..messy..tired..stress..low..sad.. is been a long time i that feel happy le.. just wanted some peace, focus and directions... so i went there.. there is only one old lady.. thats all.. no ppl at all.. i sat down there.. pray to the buddha.. quitely sat down there and close my eyes for half an hour...

Then went to gym!!!let out all my strength and frustration again.. Feels good.. hehe.. after wards went to queensway to collect our jersey!! haha.. quite nice.. haha.. Chat with him and have a cup of coffee.. haha.. were discussing about the tai wan trip!! We 2 like freaking excited la!! haha.. can't wait man!!

Tats it for my off day...simple, relax and meaningful ba.. going camp le.. byeeeee....!!

gloomy

Went to friend bday party.. give him my blessing.. it was near Changi jetty.. the place that travels to ubin island..

Feeling very very low, tired, and sick.... whats wrong ? hate it.. i just wan to live everyday happily...
Is simple.. why so hard..

sweet dreams..

Yesterday night.. have a very sweet dream... i dun wanna wake up... how i wish i will be in the dream forever.. haha.. its a secret.. but is a very happy one..i wanna share with u guys but i wish it will come true.. tats y dun wan to share .. haha..

Have a bruise leg today.. dunno how i get one.. sianz.. pain like shit...

gtg go camp le... hope i will go into the dream again..=) wan an..

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Recently.. was very busy.. i try to go to any places that my friends call me to go, some more need to work.. gym.. this and that... kind of shag out...but the feeling was nice.. i jus knock off.. in minutes when i lie on the bed..

Oh ya.. promoted to corporal first class recently... haha.. good la.. money increase abit.. but more responsibilty.. but is nice to have this rank cos.. my platoon i am the only one to have it.. haha..

nothing much to say le.. hope everyone is enjoying their life.. recently keep looking for meaningful lyrics in the net.. and listen to the song.. is nice and peaceful.. it sings a person thoughts.. this song i want to share with u is zhen shi 真实 by zhang hui mei... meaning reality but couldn't find the song in imeem..

歌手：张惠妹 专辑：真实

你说的话在我心中生了根

爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉另外一个人

我等等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子
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Somewhere at a particular place of my heart...

fruitful day

Today went to SIM uni for the course briefing of the RMIT offer de marketing course...was raining heavily.. but still never stop me from going there.. cos i really want to know what izzit about and so on.. When reach there.. was the first few of them.. i went in to the lecture theatre to take a nap.. plug in my mp3 and really doze off for that 10 to 15 mins.. hahaha!!

When i wake up~~ to my surprise that the whole theatre is full of ladies!! guys are quite handful!! What the~~~ My left and right also ladies! Was quite surprise that so many female take this course... Hahaha.. still dunno yet.. when start of sch then we will know again.. When saw the video clip and motivations given by the lecturers.. was really excited and enthu to study my best to get the best result!! shall see again!!

After that went out with MK they all to queensway.. to find shops to buy our new jersey for our basketball team!is been quite some time that we make le.. In the end manage to find and they all vote me to design the logo!! my god... i dun wanna disappoint them.. jus try my best ba.. haha..

The flu has already with me for quite some time le.. shit.. cannot recover lei... very xin ku... irritating! sick ar!

going camp le.. the pathetic camp.. haha.. wan an.. friends.. =)

bad bad~~

Went to IT fair.. wa lao.. SO many many people.. Haiz.. actually tot of buying a desktop in the end the particular model no more stock.. wth!! nvm.. i oso not in a rush.. wait and see then..met kuan ta..in marina..in the end we go home together.. and after tat go his house.. play games and watch soccer match.. manutd lost to liverpool.. my goodnes..hAIZ.. sway ar.. hope they can pick up themselves and strive forward and get all trophies!!

Is just like life... beautiful things never last.. sometimes happy.. sometimes bad.. sometimes disappointing.. sometimes touched.. ups and downs.. is depend on us how are we going pick ourselves up and deal with it bravely! is all in oursleves.. the mentality.. To face it.. and solve it.. overcome it.. We will then improve, become stronger.. better.. and happier.. This is the life of a human being..

gtg.. booking in to the camp le.. good nights.. life goes on.. =)
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Below is the lyrics for jie tuo (解脱).. meaning let go, is the 2nd song in my playlist, is a very nice and healing song.. lets see how beautiful is the lyrics are..

主唱:张惠妹

爱是不夜城

回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾

我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人

越想越伤人

枯坐到清晨

阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头

不要爱我的人再担心我

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦
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dead beat

jus come back from friend bday party... the finale was drinking.. wa lao.. help my friend to ta han his alcohol.... cos he falling soon.. in the end i oso jia lat!! but still not tat bad.. cos i still can blog now.. haha.. tml will be a good day for me.. going out with jimmy's gal friends... and
IT fair..haha.. and watch MAN UNITED vs LIVERPOOL at 8.40 pm!!! swee swee!!!

wish my friend guan soon.. a very happy birthday.. hope he enjoy his day!! happy 21st year old.. all the best to him..

Shit tml still need to go for training.. dunno still can bo.. now like wan to die liao.. okie.. bye.. nights.. my friend.. may u all haf ur impossible wish in ur dreams..let it relish it in ur dreams first.. haha sweet sweet one!! wan an! =)

nice old song

here without u

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

sucky feeling..

I feel as if i have lost an important thing in my life..

It has lost and it will never be found back anymore..

I miss it..

I think about it..

nothing can describe my emotions...

nothing...

我只能含着眼泪, 默默的离开...

break down

Yesterday my body finally break down.. cough, sore throat, flu and slight fever... all comes together.. Some more today went to work.. shag to the max.. mind in a blank.. like computer hang..
haha.. I dunno y i still wanna go work also?

Tml still need to go for training to swim for 20 laps, my goodness! Though sick.. but still wan go train.. take my life better.. i wan to shag till i can't move!! till can't think of anything but sleep..

Going camp le .. tired~ hope recover soon..


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All i want is u to be happy....nothing matters..

jus feel like blogging now~~

Actually i also dunno wat to write over here now.. jus wanna login and write something here.. before i go to camp.. sianz..

Mmm.. recently I am to free le.. Basically, i got nothing much in mind... till i worry and think of some stupid things.. haha.. tat one cannot tell.. haha.. Mmm.. recently trying to keep myself busy with workouts in gym.. carrying weighs... and seems like one week nv go le.. then suddenly i can carry the more heavy ones.. feel stronger le.. haha.. maybe one week i rested my muscles.. it heals a bit.. haha.. Likes the feeling in the gym.. when training.. i am using my maximum strength and limits.. some time when i doing the last set, when the tightness of the muscle isstretch to the limit.. I would even let out "Arghhh!!!!" roar!!! hahha.. the feeling is so nice.. is a kind of destress methods... whenever i feel stress, unhappy, sad, disappointed, happy or whatever... gym is my fav place for me.. I will let go my everything in there.. haha.. guys u shd go try try!!

Jus watch finish the channel 8 show... 9 pm de.. "dream catcher"... in the show That guy sato say "I have waited for u all the time, i dun mind to wait for u this time round.." The gal say "Why u so foolish? is not worth it!" The guy sato said "Even have to wait for u is bliss for me..Some ppl in their life also can't find a person that worth to wait for... but i did... so i feel bliss.. no matter what is ur decision.. as long as u can be happy with it... u will have my blessing.. and thats my love for u.." When i heard that... wow~~ i was thinking.. in the realistic world.. how many of them are like him?? Is so touching.. haha

Recently got too much time.. and haf think through alots of things... and feel like sharing with u guys.. Mmm.. start from where first lei??? ok love ba... recently oso heard alot from ppl around me.. thier love life and blah~~ I come to a concluszion... In love.. there is no point forcing.. it takes 2 hand to clap.. Sometime when u are so into it.. that u forget that u are actually being to stubborn unnoticingly.. though u know this is wrong.. is no logic.. but love makes u go against ur logic.. sometime.. is so powerful.. I found out that... if we really love this person.. is not just about giving your heart to him or her.. showing to him or her how sincere u are.. and how much u love him or her..is not about u... is about her.. whether wat is her decision that she feels happy... If she made a decision.. and she will feel happy with it.. i believe.. If u really loves him or her.. do respect the decision...seeing ur love ones happy and seeing them smile is our everything.. nothing matters... love is so powerful..vulnerable.. touching.. and amazing.. those already haf thier love ones.. pls really cherish them with ur best.. cos sometimes.. love can be really vulnerable..

And i also wanna dedicate something for my mum, cos i tink she is the only women in the world that really loves, care and undestand me.. whenever i am down due to watever things.. no matter how worse is the thing.. she nv scold me.. she hug me.. and she will always say.."boy dun tear...mum is here.." hahaha...though feel like mummy boy but i love it at times.. cos is so heart warming..

Mmm.. hopefully i can get the confirmation letter of getting into uni soon.. Can't wait to proceed to sch life again.. i believe it will be very challenging.. fun and can get to know bunch new freinds again.. but dunno this time round i am lucky enough to get to know bunch of good freinds like my sec and poly freinds.. haha.. wish everybody good luck! haha

Going to camp soon.. wan an bye.. byee..

few pics below to show u all!! =) have dinner with my family!

back le..

Recently seems to be very very boring! Can say all my friends are busying with their uni exams! assignments! and ns work!! and blah! blah!! wa lao!! all cannot come out and meet.. miss them.. Maybe i am really too free le.. my ns life now is more relac than before.. jus haf to plan detailling for my men.. organise their work load for them.. then i can jus do my own things le.. can smell the ord dates le!!! haha!!

How i wish I am still in sec sch.. with mk they all.. or how i wish i am in poly.. with jimmy they all.. everyday stay together!! with mk they all.. everyday play basketball.. having the same passion and desire and dream! Miss the times so much! With my polymates was oso fun.. everytime stay together.. and in betweens lots of funny incidents happen!!! so funny!! study untill too sianz.. then do stupid and silly things.. u all know better... hahaha..

As times pass... we all walk separate ways.. but i know in our heart we are not apart! =)

Yesterday was a happy day for me.. long time le.. is been a long time to see the smile on ur face.. haha.. =)

below is a song by jay chou.. jus now hear le.. go and see the lyrics.. and find that the way they write the song is so cute and is simple.. and loving.. lets examine the lyrics! though old song le.. but still nice!

简单爱---周杰伦


说不上为什么我变得很主动

若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做

我想大声宣布对你依依不舍

连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动

牵着你的手一阵莫名感动

我想带你回我的外婆家

一起看着日落一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开


爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀


我想带你骑单车


我想和你看棒球


想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走


我想就这样牵着你的手不放开


爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害


你靠着我的肩膀


你在我胸口睡著


像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

想简简单单爱

想简简单单爱

simple love~~~ haha.. enjoy!

bye~

Off to some where soon.. take care everyone.. =) will come back maybe in weeks time or maybe months..

Below is the pic that feed the baby boy.. one one month old.. haha.. he kept looking at me.. so cute.. hehe..Dunno why i love baby so much... every time i see babies.. i feel very happy.. hehe


mmm.. recently.. feel so tired.. moodless.. so sick of everything.. wanna get out of here.. is time to let go...

I going to pick up myself and suddenly feel tat i am not ready for anything.. but my studies.. hope i can get in soon.. and give my all to it..

When come back.. need to plan out a congested time table.. involving.. physical training.. working.. have a pre-revision or research on the course i am going to study.. chilling with friends.. if possible i hope i can do volunteer work.. to help the needies...

Recently time is bad.. recession.. ppl are struggling with the life style in singapore.. only the determined will survived.. muz really be more careful in spending money...
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I will come back to be a better man..

can't wait!!!!

Recently.. been trying very hard at work.. mm... hope by working harder, my mess in the brain can get some rest.. divert my thinking.. i need to get up from where i fall and start to chiong again.. cos i want to be a better and happy man..

Went to kai Ying baby full month few days ago.. her baby so cute la.. hehehe.. nt easy ar.. to be a mother.. see her like tiring.. but can see that she is happy.. feed her baby with milk... hahaa.. she haven send me those pics lo.. piang.. i want lo.. so next post, i can post it out and can see me the "nai pa"... hahaha.. her relatives even thought i am the father!!! WTH!!!!! hahaha.. cos at tat moment the baby is not there.. her relative come in.. just say.."wa!! baby oei~~~ look at daddy ar..." Me and kai ying was like ??????? I was thinking.. is the daddy here??? i look around.. and found tat i am the only guy in the room.. and they tot i am the father!! hahaha!! They are so pai sei la.. actually i oso pai sei..haha........
next post will put the pics.. hahaha....

can't wait to ord!!! want to go tai wan!!! to haf great fun!!!
can't wait to studies!!! i miss schooling!!!
can't wait to get the degree!!! last mile of our education life!!!
can't wait to join police force!!!is my dream to become one!!! dunno am i eligible or not lei!!
can't wait to haf my own car!!! i sure modify the car untill like one freak!!!
can't wait to find someone tat really appreciate me!!! i want to love her like nobody love her before!!! "like very hard hor.. slowly find lo.." hahaha

haha.. sorry ar.. i like kid like tat.. write down all wishes here... and show to every one... but jus nothing better to do... write only lo.. hehe

mmm... free time.. muz really go study some marketing books le.. if not.. my brain sure rusty one.. hahaha..

I believe.. if the belief is inside u.. nothing can stop u.. nothing u can't achieve.. cos u belief u can do it... and u will do it.. of course actions muz be taken la!

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Feel that this song is nice and meaningful.... though everyone heard before.. but i believe not everyone really digest the lyrics before.. is simple.. but is sad.. really sad... tat day jus really go and listen to it.. and my heart jus tears..

title: 我的心真的受伤了 by: jacky cheung

窗外阴天了音乐低声了

我的心开始想你了

灯光也暗了音乐低声了

口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了人是无聊了

我的心开始想你了

电话响起了你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎麽你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了是你变了

灯光熄灭了音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

=) wan an.. sleep lo..

cny!!

During chi new year, went ot msia and sec sch friend houses, were very happy to see them and glad that we haf this kind of gathering.. at msia.. nothing special to me... as usual.. those places i need to go.. sianz..

i look stupid

brothers forever

my cousins

With the mighty god

love babies!! so cute!!

with naughty boy!

gotcha!

with getz!

jus some pics to share with u guys... hope in this new year.. everybody is healthy and happy!! huat ar! Chiong ar!

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There are so many definition of love for everyone... What izzit about? that can live with u? stay with u? till the last breath? what exactly is about??? i oso dunno.. nobody knows but ur own heart will know.. how abt u guys?? but i tink is actually very simple.. is not complicated..

Today My friend smack my arm with the rifle accidentally.. luckily no blood... ... I didnt shout~~ My friend shouted! "are u ok!!!!" My face is like emotionless~~ and i say~~ "i dun feel it, can u shoot me??" Hahaha.. he think i siao liao.. haha.. scare him only.. act siao..
but i dun feel the arm pain at all...

Hope everyone will be happy... wonderful moments ahead of us!!
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messy

my brain now in a mess.. damn messy...

tons of emotion piling on me..

is just like a dream~~

is time to wake up le.. andy.. u jus haf a long and beautiful dream..

but why i tear... I dunno..

life goes on~~

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Everything will be kept..

This quiz really says my heart, my fear is to lose someone i love, family members, friends or girlfriend.. i just fear to lose any of them..

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Death
Looked down on
Commitment
Disappointment

During chinese new year, i was in msia, but i do not feel any happy, cos i feel something is missing.. yup.. i miss her.. miss her everything..

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Sometimes i really hate myself to have a fragile heart, cannot take criticism or comments, will think a lot or feel very hurt. If worse, the thing will even haunt me for life, i hate this feeling.. i want and need to learn to take criticism or comments positively... I like to talk about the past... but what past is past.. why i keep pestering about the past... I dunno why i mind so much about the past~~ I need to learn again.. what past is past dun ask or think about it le..

I stupid right? such a big man, but the heart like gal like tat~~~ haiz..
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