sweet dreams..

Yesterday night.. have a very sweet dream... i dun wanna wake up... how i wish i will be in the dream forever.. haha.. its a secret.. but is a very happy one..i wanna share with u guys but i wish it will come true.. tats y dun wan to share .. haha..

Have a bruise leg today.. dunno how i get one.. sianz.. pain like shit...

gtg go camp le... hope i will go into the dream again..=) wan an..

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Recently.. was very busy.. i try to go to any places that my friends call me to go, some more need to work.. gym.. this and that... kind of shag out...but the feeling was nice.. i jus knock off.. in minutes when i lie on the bed..

Oh ya.. promoted to corporal first class recently... haha.. good la.. money increase abit.. but more responsibilty.. but is nice to have this rank cos.. my platoon i am the only one to have it.. haha..

nothing much to say le.. hope everyone is enjoying their life.. recently keep looking for meaningful lyrics in the net.. and listen to the song.. is nice and peaceful.. it sings a person thoughts.. this song i want to share with u is zhen shi 真实 by zhang hui mei... meaning reality but couldn't find the song in imeem..

歌手：张惠妹 专辑：真实

你说的话在我心中生了根

爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉另外一个人

我等等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子
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Somewhere at a particular place of my heart...

fruitful day

Today went to SIM uni for the course briefing of the RMIT offer de marketing course...was raining heavily.. but still never stop me from going there.. cos i really want to know what izzit about and so on.. When reach there.. was the first few of them.. i went in to the lecture theatre to take a nap.. plug in my mp3 and really doze off for that 10 to 15 mins.. hahaha!!

When i wake up~~ to my surprise that the whole theatre is full of ladies!! guys are quite handful!! What the~~~ My left and right also ladies! Was quite surprise that so many female take this course... Hahaha.. still dunno yet.. when start of sch then we will know again.. When saw the video clip and motivations given by the lecturers.. was really excited and enthu to study my best to get the best result!! shall see again!!

After that went out with MK they all to queensway.. to find shops to buy our new jersey for our basketball team!is been quite some time that we make le.. In the end manage to find and they all vote me to design the logo!! my god... i dun wanna disappoint them.. jus try my best ba.. haha..

The flu has already with me for quite some time le.. shit.. cannot recover lei... very xin ku... irritating! sick ar!

going camp le.. the pathetic camp.. haha.. wan an.. friends.. =)

bad bad~~

Went to IT fair.. wa lao.. SO many many people.. Haiz.. actually tot of buying a desktop in the end the particular model no more stock.. wth!! nvm.. i oso not in a rush.. wait and see then..met kuan ta..in marina..in the end we go home together.. and after tat go his house.. play games and watch soccer match.. manutd lost to liverpool.. my goodnes..hAIZ.. sway ar.. hope they can pick up themselves and strive forward and get all trophies!!

Is just like life... beautiful things never last.. sometimes happy.. sometimes bad.. sometimes disappointing.. sometimes touched.. ups and downs.. is depend on us how are we going pick ourselves up and deal with it bravely! is all in oursleves.. the mentality.. To face it.. and solve it.. overcome it.. We will then improve, become stronger.. better.. and happier.. This is the life of a human being..

gtg.. booking in to the camp le.. good nights.. life goes on.. =)
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Below is the lyrics for jie tuo (解脱).. meaning let go, is the 2nd song in my playlist, is a very nice and healing song.. lets see how beautiful is the lyrics are..

主唱:张惠妹

爱是不夜城

回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾

我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人

越想越伤人

枯坐到清晨

阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

伤若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头

不要爱我的人再担心我

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦
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dead beat

jus come back from friend bday party... the finale was drinking.. wa lao.. help my friend to ta han his alcohol.... cos he falling soon.. in the end i oso jia lat!! but still not tat bad.. cos i still can blog now.. haha.. tml will be a good day for me.. going out with jimmy's gal friends... and
IT fair..haha.. and watch MAN UNITED vs LIVERPOOL at 8.40 pm!!! swee swee!!!

wish my friend guan soon.. a very happy birthday.. hope he enjoy his day!! happy 21st year old.. all the best to him..

Shit tml still need to go for training.. dunno still can bo.. now like wan to die liao.. okie.. bye.. nights.. my friend.. may u all haf ur impossible wish in ur dreams..let it relish it in ur dreams first.. haha sweet sweet one!! wan an! =)

nice old song

here without u

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

sucky feeling..

I feel as if i have lost an important thing in my life..

It has lost and it will never be found back anymore..

I miss it..

I think about it..

nothing can describe my emotions...

nothing...

我只能含着眼泪, 默默的离开...

break down

Yesterday my body finally break down.. cough, sore throat, flu and slight fever... all comes together.. Some more today went to work.. shag to the max.. mind in a blank.. like computer hang..
haha.. I dunno y i still wanna go work also?

Tml still need to go for training to swim for 20 laps, my goodness! Though sick.. but still wan go train.. take my life better.. i wan to shag till i can't move!! till can't think of anything but sleep..

Going camp le .. tired~ hope recover soon..


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All i want is u to be happy....nothing matters..

jus feel like blogging now~~

Actually i also dunno wat to write over here now.. jus wanna login and write something here.. before i go to camp.. sianz..

Mmm.. recently I am to free le.. Basically, i got nothing much in mind... till i worry and think of some stupid things.. haha.. tat one cannot tell.. haha.. Mmm.. recently trying to keep myself busy with workouts in gym.. carrying weighs... and seems like one week nv go le.. then suddenly i can carry the more heavy ones.. feel stronger le.. haha.. maybe one week i rested my muscles.. it heals a bit.. haha.. Likes the feeling in the gym.. when training.. i am using my maximum strength and limits.. some time when i doing the last set, when the tightness of the muscle isstretch to the limit.. I would even let out "Arghhh!!!!" roar!!! hahha.. the feeling is so nice.. is a kind of destress methods... whenever i feel stress, unhappy, sad, disappointed, happy or whatever... gym is my fav place for me.. I will let go my everything in there.. haha.. guys u shd go try try!!

Jus watch finish the channel 8 show... 9 pm de.. "dream catcher"... in the show That guy sato say "I have waited for u all the time, i dun mind to wait for u this time round.." The gal say "Why u so foolish? is not worth it!" The guy sato said "Even have to wait for u is bliss for me..Some ppl in their life also can't find a person that worth to wait for... but i did... so i feel bliss.. no matter what is ur decision.. as long as u can be happy with it... u will have my blessing.. and thats my love for u.." When i heard that... wow~~ i was thinking.. in the realistic world.. how many of them are like him?? Is so touching.. haha

Recently got too much time.. and haf think through alots of things... and feel like sharing with u guys.. Mmm.. start from where first lei??? ok love ba... recently oso heard alot from ppl around me.. thier love life and blah~~ I come to a concluszion... In love.. there is no point forcing.. it takes 2 hand to clap.. Sometime when u are so into it.. that u forget that u are actually being to stubborn unnoticingly.. though u know this is wrong.. is no logic.. but love makes u go against ur logic.. sometime.. is so powerful.. I found out that... if we really love this person.. is not just about giving your heart to him or her.. showing to him or her how sincere u are.. and how much u love him or her..is not about u... is about her.. whether wat is her decision that she feels happy... If she made a decision.. and she will feel happy with it.. i believe.. If u really loves him or her.. do respect the decision...seeing ur love ones happy and seeing them smile is our everything.. nothing matters... love is so powerful..vulnerable.. touching.. and amazing.. those already haf thier love ones.. pls really cherish them with ur best.. cos sometimes.. love can be really vulnerable..

And i also wanna dedicate something for my mum, cos i tink she is the only women in the world that really loves, care and undestand me.. whenever i am down due to watever things.. no matter how worse is the thing.. she nv scold me.. she hug me.. and she will always say.."boy dun tear...mum is here.." hahaha...though feel like mummy boy but i love it at times.. cos is so heart warming..

Mmm.. hopefully i can get the confirmation letter of getting into uni soon.. Can't wait to proceed to sch life again.. i believe it will be very challenging.. fun and can get to know bunch new freinds again.. but dunno this time round i am lucky enough to get to know bunch of good freinds like my sec and poly freinds.. haha.. wish everybody good luck! haha

Going to camp soon.. wan an bye.. byee..

few pics below to show u all!! =) have dinner with my family!

back le..

Recently seems to be very very boring! Can say all my friends are busying with their uni exams! assignments! and ns work!! and blah! blah!! wa lao!! all cannot come out and meet.. miss them.. Maybe i am really too free le.. my ns life now is more relac than before.. jus haf to plan detailling for my men.. organise their work load for them.. then i can jus do my own things le.. can smell the ord dates le!!! haha!!

How i wish I am still in sec sch.. with mk they all.. or how i wish i am in poly.. with jimmy they all.. everyday stay together!! with mk they all.. everyday play basketball.. having the same passion and desire and dream! Miss the times so much! With my polymates was oso fun.. everytime stay together.. and in betweens lots of funny incidents happen!!! so funny!! study untill too sianz.. then do stupid and silly things.. u all know better... hahaha..

As times pass... we all walk separate ways.. but i know in our heart we are not apart! =)

Yesterday was a happy day for me.. long time le.. is been a long time to see the smile on ur face.. haha.. =)

below is a song by jay chou.. jus now hear le.. go and see the lyrics.. and find that the way they write the song is so cute and is simple.. and loving.. lets examine the lyrics! though old song le.. but still nice!

简单爱---周杰伦


说不上为什么我变得很主动

若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做

我想大声宣布对你依依不舍

连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动

牵着你的手一阵莫名感动

我想带你回我的外婆家

一起看着日落一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开


爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀


我想带你骑单车


我想和你看棒球


想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走


我想就这样牵着你的手不放开


爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害


你靠着我的肩膀


你在我胸口睡著


像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

想简简单单爱

想简简单单爱

simple love~~~ haha.. enjoy!

bye~

Off to some where soon.. take care everyone.. =) will come back maybe in weeks time or maybe months..

Below is the pic that feed the baby boy.. one one month old.. haha.. he kept looking at me.. so cute.. hehe..Dunno why i love baby so much... every time i see babies.. i feel very happy.. hehe


mmm.. recently.. feel so tired.. moodless.. so sick of everything.. wanna get out of here.. is time to let go...

I going to pick up myself and suddenly feel tat i am not ready for anything.. but my studies.. hope i can get in soon.. and give my all to it..

When come back.. need to plan out a congested time table.. involving.. physical training.. working.. have a pre-revision or research on the course i am going to study.. chilling with friends.. if possible i hope i can do volunteer work.. to help the needies...

Recently time is bad.. recession.. ppl are struggling with the life style in singapore.. only the determined will survived.. muz really be more careful in spending money...
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I will come back to be a better man..

can't wait!!!!

Recently.. been trying very hard at work.. mm... hope by working harder, my mess in the brain can get some rest.. divert my thinking.. i need to get up from where i fall and start to chiong again.. cos i want to be a better and happy man..

Went to kai Ying baby full month few days ago.. her baby so cute la.. hehehe.. nt easy ar.. to be a mother.. see her like tiring.. but can see that she is happy.. feed her baby with milk... hahaa.. she haven send me those pics lo.. piang.. i want lo.. so next post, i can post it out and can see me the "nai pa"... hahaha.. her relatives even thought i am the father!!! WTH!!!!! hahaha.. cos at tat moment the baby is not there.. her relative come in.. just say.."wa!! baby oei~~~ look at daddy ar..." Me and kai ying was like ??????? I was thinking.. is the daddy here??? i look around.. and found tat i am the only guy in the room.. and they tot i am the father!! hahaha!! They are so pai sei la.. actually i oso pai sei..haha........
next post will put the pics.. hahaha....

can't wait to ord!!! want to go tai wan!!! to haf great fun!!!
can't wait to studies!!! i miss schooling!!!
can't wait to get the degree!!! last mile of our education life!!!
can't wait to join police force!!!is my dream to become one!!! dunno am i eligible or not lei!!
can't wait to haf my own car!!! i sure modify the car untill like one freak!!!
can't wait to find someone tat really appreciate me!!! i want to love her like nobody love her before!!! "like very hard hor.. slowly find lo.." hahaha

haha.. sorry ar.. i like kid like tat.. write down all wishes here... and show to every one... but jus nothing better to do... write only lo.. hehe

mmm... free time.. muz really go study some marketing books le.. if not.. my brain sure rusty one.. hahaha..

I believe.. if the belief is inside u.. nothing can stop u.. nothing u can't achieve.. cos u belief u can do it... and u will do it.. of course actions muz be taken la!

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Feel that this song is nice and meaningful.... though everyone heard before.. but i believe not everyone really digest the lyrics before.. is simple.. but is sad.. really sad... tat day jus really go and listen to it.. and my heart jus tears..

title: 我的心真的受伤了 by: jacky cheung

窗外阴天了音乐低声了

我的心开始想你了

灯光也暗了音乐低声了

口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了人是无聊了

我的心开始想你了

电话响起了你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎麽你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了是你变了

灯光熄灭了音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

=) wan an.. sleep lo..

cny!!

During chi new year, went ot msia and sec sch friend houses, were very happy to see them and glad that we haf this kind of gathering.. at msia.. nothing special to me... as usual.. those places i need to go.. sianz..

i look stupid

brothers forever

my cousins

With the mighty god

love babies!! so cute!!

with naughty boy!

gotcha!

with getz!

jus some pics to share with u guys... hope in this new year.. everybody is healthy and happy!! huat ar! Chiong ar!

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There are so many definition of love for everyone... What izzit about? that can live with u? stay with u? till the last breath? what exactly is about??? i oso dunno.. nobody knows but ur own heart will know.. how abt u guys?? but i tink is actually very simple.. is not complicated..

Today My friend smack my arm with the rifle accidentally.. luckily no blood... ... I didnt shout~~ My friend shouted! "are u ok!!!!" My face is like emotionless~~ and i say~~ "i dun feel it, can u shoot me??" Hahaha.. he think i siao liao.. haha.. scare him only.. act siao..
but i dun feel the arm pain at all...

Hope everyone will be happy... wonderful moments ahead of us!!
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messy

my brain now in a mess.. damn messy...

tons of emotion piling on me..

is just like a dream~~

is time to wake up le.. andy.. u jus haf a long and beautiful dream..

but why i tear... I dunno..

life goes on~~

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Everything will be kept..

This quiz really says my heart, my fear is to lose someone i love, family members, friends or girlfriend.. i just fear to lose any of them..

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Death
Looked down on
Commitment
Disappointment

During chinese new year, i was in msia, but i do not feel any happy, cos i feel something is missing.. yup.. i miss her.. miss her everything..

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Sometimes i really hate myself to have a fragile heart, cannot take criticism or comments, will think a lot or feel very hurt. If worse, the thing will even haunt me for life, i hate this feeling.. i want and need to learn to take criticism or comments positively... I like to talk about the past... but what past is past.. why i keep pestering about the past... I dunno why i mind so much about the past~~ I need to learn again.. what past is past dun ask or think about it le..

I stupid right? such a big man, but the heart like gal like tat~~~ haiz..
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another happy day

Was a nice morning today when i wake up.. just went down to the park and run 3 km.. and do lots of physical training myself.. was totally shag.. hands do till very numb.. then decided to take a pic of my tired body.. hahaha.. freak zi lian.. i know.. haha..

went to haf lunch with her when she release from sch.. was really happy to see her.. haha.. but she was with her friends.. so we like need to behave ourself.. cannot be playful.. haha..

after which went ot meet jody and qian wen.. They all wanted to treat me for my bday.. haha.. but was feeling a bit different cos jy was not here... hope she feels better now..

some pics here..







happy~ =)

haiz.. stupid me~!!!!!!!!

Sleeping soon.. tired.. just have supper with yimei .. was really stupid.. thought she haven't sleep.. just went down to her place without calling her in advance.. in the end she woke up from her sleep just to eat with me.. my god.. how stupid am i?!! When saw her sleepy face was so guilty~~ sorry.. Thought u were hungry tats y i just rush down to ur place.. =(

tml morning need to exercise a bit.. fat liao.. then going out with jy qw and jody.. okok.. good night...

Wan an .. sleeping time.. oink oink~~

happy to see u =)

why?!*&#"` haiz..

Before i go work... Just want to say something... Why a lot of people will only feel it when they lost it... why can't they just cherish it when things haven't change... Opportunities, chances or fate seldom comes to us.. why people will only feel the pain, the agony when they lose it... I know is bad to say but we have to say.. Is just too late.. I'm sorry...

These kind of things are always happening... A Lot of people just dun learn.. in the end you are the one suffering..

Please don't take things for granted, chances or fate does not comes easy.. *one in a million*

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Is too late.... sorry..

22nd bday!

haiz.. one year older again.. my god..22 le.. sianz.. Not a bad thing as i gonna meet my future soon.. hehe.. as time goes..This year i call most of my friends to come my house, as i hope is a small gathering for everyone, so we still know how each other doing.. hehe.. Have a really pai seh and great time hahah..

Eveything was fine but there are some disappointments, Thought tat the rest of my camp mates coming but in the end when they nv come.. they didn't even bother to inform.. some inform but seems like they treat this thing is jus like nothing.. was really disappointing and irresponsible.. sad.. but is okie.. now i know who are the goods and bads.. haha..

gal.. thanks for coming.. i know u were stress, pai seh and lonely that day, to face my lots of friends and parents, but u still came.. hugz... =)

pics time..

Me jy and qw

couple watch by sec sch friends

andy zhu and yimei bear *bleh

camp mates

leslie jimmy and bing jie

its been 8 years, friends forever

=)

My pathethic cake

My family and her

glove she made.. CUTE!!

okie byeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Will u look for me when i am gone...will u ?

A new start!!! 2009!! chiong ar!!!

Wow~~ wow~~ 2009 finally arrived... time is flying high high high!! Yesterday night went to marina bay to watch the fireworks.. The fireworks were fantastic.. i belief the fireworks gives each and every one of us a new hope and it touches everyone heart.. and it was so sweet for me cos she was by my side...

In this brand new 2009, i wish all my family members, friends and her stay healthy and happy.. Everything will be smooth and steady overcoming all obstacles..

here are some pics~

nothing better to do~~ take pic lo.. haha.. can become one comic book.. haha


















cherish all our love ones =)